Twenty three.
That's the amount of years I've lived on this earth. I've been through most things that people have undergone too. But that's not what this post is about.
This post is about a choice. A promise. An echoing feeling. A reaction. A state of mind. Whatever it maybe, I rather just type it I guess.
I've been through a lot. I've seen both sides of the coin for most cases and I cannot help but ... enjoy at times... the wrong choices. But why does every time I do it now feels like a part of me is dying? As if a part of me is being betrayed. Like something inside of me is telling me "Stop. This is wrong." We all face our devils. Some we cannot even overcome but this is one devil I want - but I cannot. It's like something so good is embedded in me. Something good inside me found its way out. Probably because I knew what it means to love again. That something reminded me of what I truly cherished. Something I truly held important. As my friend once put it, "Chivalry". It's like a part of my soul. I can't bear the cheesy drama things. It reverberates stronger once it gets in my system like it was made for me. I've been called "gay" for this but I now I realize I shouldn't have stopped. I shouldn't have wavered.
Everything and everyone will pull you down and tell you how you should see it.
They seem to forget you had your own set of eyes that sees the world with it.
So fight for what you see. Fight for what you believe in.
If your life is dictated by what you have done, what you remember, what you believe in, how you look, what you own, protect it with everything you have for it is the essence of who you are and can never be truly understood by everyone else. Everyone has something to protect with "other people" being the least at times.
So don't falter. Fight for what you believe, be it that dogs are the best, that Jesus is real, that Allah awaits, that Science is truth, that power is measure by money - whatever it is, no matter which side - fight for it. Wars are fought for both sides are just.
If you truly believe in it, fight so that it shall be your truth.
Let it be your creed.
That's the amount of years I've lived on this earth. I've been through most things that people have undergone too. But that's not what this post is about.
This post is about a choice. A promise. An echoing feeling. A reaction. A state of mind. Whatever it maybe, I rather just type it I guess.
I've been through a lot. I've seen both sides of the coin for most cases and I cannot help but ... enjoy at times... the wrong choices. But why does every time I do it now feels like a part of me is dying? As if a part of me is being betrayed. Like something inside of me is telling me "Stop. This is wrong." We all face our devils. Some we cannot even overcome but this is one devil I want - but I cannot. It's like something so good is embedded in me. Something good inside me found its way out. Probably because I knew what it means to love again. That something reminded me of what I truly cherished. Something I truly held important. As my friend once put it, "Chivalry". It's like a part of my soul. I can't bear the cheesy drama things. It reverberates stronger once it gets in my system like it was made for me. I've been called "gay" for this but I now I realize I shouldn't have stopped. I shouldn't have wavered.
Everything and everyone will pull you down and tell you how you should see it.
They seem to forget you had your own set of eyes that sees the world with it.
So fight for what you see. Fight for what you believe in.
If your life is dictated by what you have done, what you remember, what you believe in, how you look, what you own, protect it with everything you have for it is the essence of who you are and can never be truly understood by everyone else. Everyone has something to protect with "other people" being the least at times.
So don't falter. Fight for what you believe, be it that dogs are the best, that Jesus is real, that Allah awaits, that Science is truth, that power is measure by money - whatever it is, no matter which side - fight for it. Wars are fought for both sides are just.
If you truly believe in it, fight so that it shall be your truth.
Let it be your creed.
~
I wanted - no, needed - to be evil.
But something found itself to me and proved to be who I truly am.
But something found itself to me and proved to be who I truly am.
~
-Aron